“We are not broken; We are what comes next”
This is something that is not exclusive to Dissociative Disorders. Abandonment, and more importantly the fear of, is at the heart of many developmental, emotional and mental disorders. More importantly, we must first understand what the term means to those of us who fear it, and why. The world abandonment, usually means to most people, … Continue reading Abandonment
If you are going to let an asshole into your house, do not be surprised when he breaks something.
For as many years as we can remember, the feeling like we were very different, was always there. Maybe not the conscience knowledge of a particular issue, but the unthought-known, something was certainly "special" about us. The almost predictable ridicule and bullying we experienced though our early years, till our post adolescent years, was certainly … Continue reading My Alters Are Not Crazy, I Am
Part 3. Running Into Darkness We have now exposed and examined the situations that caused the early trauma trifecta. The inability for the child to have an effective baseline of safety and boundaries, the lack of a safe space, either real or perceived, and the radically unstable maternal figure, our mom. Our only solution, to … Continue reading Trauma Superstorm Part 3
Part 2 We have now come to the part, where the child has repeatedly been forced to cope with a laundry list of “innocuous horrors”. We use this term, because our parents could be famous quoting to us the many reasons that we were never abused. The verbiage was almost always the same, even though … Continue reading Trauma Superstorm Part 2
This is a difficult subject for us to discuss. Even to begin. To try and transpose our food experiences and emotions about this subject, and exhaustive before we even begin. coming to full awareness while in a damaged relationship, is the black hole, of unstable confusion. When we came it be with our wife, now … Continue reading DID, Marriage, and Therapy
So many of us that suffer from PTSD/cPTSD, and other associated trauma diagnosis, have no idea at all who we really are. We only have the misinformed ideas we were taught at such young age. Many of these ideas, contributed to the trauma, or did nothing more than reinforce the negative perceptions we have about … Continue reading Redefining Identity, After Complex Trauma Part II
We have been having a revelation as of late, a seeming push from deep within our system to seek more than what is currently out there. We feel that maybe, all of the therapy we have had, albeit lifesaving and helpful, is only the beginning to a recovery that is more evolution than repair. We … Continue reading Moving Into The Future, and Out Of The Past, With Dissociative Identity Disorder. Part I
As we approach our travel day, away from Chaing May, the existential angst that has left us for most of our adventure returns. The body has taken note, and we cannot deny the effects. The fatigue, pain, and overall feelings of dread and dismay are completely upon us. This is not a coincidence, this is … Continue reading The Dark Cloud Cometh
Achieving Existential Power Existentialism, which like may philosophies, has been viewed as obscure, and in many cases almost meaningless to the common man. May philosophies have been all but dismissed as impractical studies, reserved for intellectual elites, and scholars. These studies are reserved for those who do not need to push through, in the … Continue reading Existential Empowerment
As we continue this journey through space and time, we realize more, there is no conclusion to our existence. Even though death is a certainty, reaching the climax of our humanity is certainly unattainable. The struggle to give meaning to the nothingness that we occupy only brings angst and despair. We are as Sartre … Continue reading An Existential Approach to The Integration Question
We have focused greatly on our opinion of the Existential ideology, and how that applies to the consciousness of our humanity, but also allows us to power our own freedom through true choice in actions. Admittedly, we believe that an Existential attitude towards our day to day lives is preferred; this cannot however be the … Continue reading Gaining Identity through Exi-Sential Balance
Power originating from individual authenticity, is the greatest source of energy in the universe.
Living as Whole Fragments 